Thursday, August 28
To stand with this Perfect Love.
I have seen the importance.
I have seen the grace.
I have set myself a goal.
"Using the ordinary to do extraordinary things."
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Why compare me to her?
Her of all people. Geez.
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Geez. Can't a person be nice without being thought of as someone with a motive?
Geez. What does it take to be nice?
Geez. What does it take to just give to others?
Are all humans that bad?
Don't we have a good side?
Does it mean that only your parents are the best and others will always want to worst out of you?
If it does, does it mean that those abandoned children have no hope of finding love?
If not, then what is this love that I experience every moment of my life? It's definitely not from my birth parents.
If not, then why are there people who donate to others? Anonymously.
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Monday, August 25
Another declaration
I am officially changing my blogskin after my Prelims.
Now for the purpose.
The purpose of the above declaration is to somehow influence my blogskin not to look so dull and boring, so that it will look more interesting to me and I will not change it.
Seriously. It's getting a little bit too long and dull. I hate this color, you know. I'd totally love it if it were black. Or red. Not blue though. I don't think it'll look nice. :P
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Prelims first paper: Today.
I think the papers were good. Not bad. Thank God.
Once again, He answered my prayers.
Not by might, not by power.
I'm feeling slightly under the weather. Keep sneezing.
I have a declaration to make: My nose has, officially, after 16 long years with me, decided that it wants to run away to a faraway place where I can't find it, so that I will be nose-less.
The purpose of that declaration is to mock my nose for even attempting to leave me so that my darling nose will feel ashamed and not leave.
There. That's what happens when you have too much of SS.
Tmr's Lit Elective and EMath.
Emath- ok la.
Lit Elect- ... (speechless)
SS & BIO together. OMG. How on earth did the school thnk of such a combination? 2 papers which needs hard memorization and understanding together? How to chiong? How to mug?
Ah wells. I shall do well.
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Thursday, August 21
Prelims's in less than a week. 4 days to be exact.
4 years. Gone just like that.
Okok, my 'remembrance' post for Crescent shall be done at the end of the year, when I have more free time.
Looking forward so some awfully exciting moves at tabletennis tmr.
The Olympics just renewed the love for Table tennis in me. I used to be a table tennis player, you know. I still remember how, on my first training, I was so hyped up for it, ready to start. But I guess I went too fast, trying to run before I could even walk. The coach shouted at me to go to a corner and practice bouncing the ball on the racket, at least 20 times. It's not easy on first try, you know. It's not as simple as you think.
After I finally got control of my wrist and knew how to balance myself, I thought I was ready. Boy, was I proven wrong! After a few hits and misses, time to clear the balls from the floor. It's really a game that makes you start right from the beginning, right from scratch. It wasn't easy, but I got through it. In one piece.
Soon, I started learning strategies. How to control the curves of a ball in mid-air. How to return a fast but corner ball. When to use energy and when not to. I was learning. Competitions, school-based, nation based. I took part in them, yes. But why did I stop after P4? I can't recall the details, but I think it was too time consuming. Either that or my fire for the sport had just died off.
It was a short 2 years, but I remember it as if it were today. What I would give to play it once more. My racket's gone, my skills rusted. How will I play?
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Post about O level Oral yesterday.
Hygiene. Of all things. Ah wells.
I think I did MUCH better than I'd usually do.
Maybe it's because I _______.
Maybe it's because I had ________.
Maybe it's because I know _________.
But it was good, nonetheless.
Above all my expectations.
Exceedingly, abundantly, above all expectations.
Thank You.
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Monday, August 18
"Oh, oh, I know. It starts with a 'C'. Ah, Dutch!"
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Sunday, August 17
Of Sowji and her never ending "Let me continue"s.
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Friday, August 15
Singapore's finally got a medal.
In Beijing Olympics 2008.
Table-tennis women's.
It was so stressing watching the match. Especially if I know the rules. If I didn't know the rules, might not be so stressed, but wow.
First medal. History.
Her name will be written in the books of history.
She was singled out as the weakling, yet she broke through it and got the first medal.
Impressive.
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A SWEET AROMA
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A heart that hides Your word
So that sin will not come in
A heart that's undivided
But one You rule and reign
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I can't believe this.
This hit me. Hit me big time.
After all I've done?
After all I've cared?
I can't believe it.
I want to see the rainbow.
But for that, I'd have to endure through the rain.
Rain that used to diminish my hope,
Now it's just so refreshing.
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Tuesday, August 12
Children.
Parents.
Do you know how much children look up to their parents? How children would practically do anything to get their parents' attention? Children who would do silly things just to get their parents to acknowledge that they're there?
That idea struck me again today.
After someone told her mom about her excellent results, and her mom praised her for the first time. She was so happy she cried. Tears of joy. Touched. Then it struck me how I felt too, at the beginning of the year, when I got my first A1 for L1R5. When I told my mom, it was also, the first time she praised me openly.
Even when I finally found out how to solve the Rubik's Cube, my mom said, "Of course, if you don't solve it, then why on earth did you buy it? Such a waste of money!" There and then, it struck me. It struck me hard.
How much children need their parents' affirmation. How much these words of praise, encouragement mean to the children. I guess, back then, I thought, if only I could get my mom to praise me again, I'd do anything. Words of affirmation. Words of love. Words that show others how much you care. Words that tell others that you're there for them.
I read an article which talked about how little parents nowadays praise their child. Isn't it true? Parents nowadays are simply extreme, either they overly praise, or they don't praise at all. Under praise is a bad thing, but over praise is also a bad thing. Complacency arises with over praise. Low self-esteem strengthens with under praise.
You came and poured Yourself so free
Your blood washed away my shame
And now, I can live again
I'm more of You and less of me
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You know, when there's a small opening in a wall, you just want to find out where it leads to, right? You want to know what is it that is behind that wall. The knowledge of knowing what is behind just gets you so excited and eager. What's why, zee. That's why I did what I did. =)
That's curiosity.
But it takes courage to find out what's behind.
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They got back their O levels MT results today. 4S2 did horrendously well, better than all the other classes. Even the teachers were shocked. GO, 4S2! =)
I'm really proud of all of them. Even if they did not achieve the results that they wanted, none went into despair and gave up, that kind of thing. Even the oral examiners were impressed with the way 4S2 students held themselves, trying their very best. They do deserve it.
The teachers say, if we put in as much effort as we did for our MT O levels (which I took last year), then we'd definitely be glad with our results. I beg to differ. I didn't work for my MT O levels last year. If I put in the same effort to the other subjects, I bet I'd get a C for everything. MT End of years O levels are freaking easy (or rather, that's what I feel after getting my results. haha.), you don't have to work hard to get that A1. But Mid years O levels are a different story. I've never taken them, so I don't know. But I guess Chinese O levels Mid years was rather alright.
Some didn't do as expected. Don't worry. I may not know how you feel, but I sure understand the feeling of being so thoroughly disappointed after putting in so much hard work, like no matter how much you do, it's useless. I know that feeling. It's unbearable, yes, but life's like that. It's not a bed of roses, but neither is it a bed of thorns. You won't fall forever. You fall, yes, but you can get back up. When you get back up, you will do exceedingly, better than before, because you've got experience. Yes, cry by all means, express your feelings, but stand up after that. There's no point in life if you keep sulking and telling yourself you can't do it. If you think you can't, then get help. I'm sure there're many who'd be more than willing to teach you, to guide you.
Just give it your best.
Life's too short to keep on wasting.
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Saturday, August 9
I GOT KIROU yesterday!
Kirou was born on the Eighth day of the Eighth month of the Eighth year of the new millennium. She is a soft and squishy little monkey, 43 cm, currently 535 kg grams. Unfortunately, she has yet to learn how to make a sound, so you might have to wait for a while to hear her say something. She is currently wearing a little red checkered dress that looks slightly Spanish, wearing also that cute little smile she always carries. Kirou loves her new home but prefers to sleep in her little comfy dark room where she is a giant. Her foot sticks out of the door of the little room and she can hardly move around in it. However, she loves it inside there. So, as a respecter of stuffed animals' rights, I shall let her do as she wishes.
Kirou was given to me by Celestine and Zarifah, though a part was paid by me...
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
I can't imagine living somewhere else other than home! =)
Thank you, Singapore. =)
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Friday, August 8
What to do?
What to say?
I'm still learning, if that helps.
Some of us just think that we can do everything by ourselves, but who knows that it's impossible? It is impossible that your whole life can be depended on yourself. Not only emotionally, but physically too. When we were young, our parents fed us, our parents clothed us, our parents cared for us. Showed us love.
Our parents are our guidance on earth. To prepare us for the world. For eternity. Yes, they may not be perfect, they may not be the best parents, but I believe that deep inside their heart, our parents care for us. He would not give us parents who are unprepared for children, parents who are unfit to bring up a child.
No matter what they do, they are our parents. They are not perfect, they make mistakes, do we forgive them? How strange is it that we can say, "to err is human", yet when our parents make a mistake, we say, "they can't make any mistakes, because they're parents." It simply makes no sense. If they didn't make mistakes, if they didn't do wrong, if they did everything perfectly, they'd be god. But they're not.
So, do we forgive? Isn't the point that they have given much to let us live on this earth enough for us to forgive them? Do you know how much it costs these days to have a baby? Do you know how many health risks women face when pregnant? It's not a bed of roses, just walking difficulty or not being able to see your feet kind of life only, it concerns much more. Our parents have definitely sacrificed much to bring us onto this Earth. What's more to say that we're born in Singapore. Where there is no starvation. Although the land's small, but all races live together in harmony. Where we don't need to worry about living, education, food, because the government cares enough to sponsor us if we do not have enough. What more can we ask for?
People in other countries are starving, but they don't blame their parents for that, do they? If they can toughen themselves up, what more can we say and do, having more than what they have? Appreciate what we have first before doing anything. It is a blessing to be able to live in Singapore.
I thank my parents for my current life.
But I thank the Ultimate One for making this happen.
For planning my entire life even before I was born.
Though I may not understand
All the plans You have for me
My life is in Your hands
THANK YOU
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Wednesday, August 6
Bintan Trip's been postponed to 14-16 Nov.
Which gives me one night to rest after O's, and one night to rest after coming back before prom the next day/night. Right.
How on earth am I supposed to get the time to get my attire for that night? Can't believe this. This probably means that I would have to get it before the big O's or something. Geez.
Ah wells, time will work itself out. =)
At least I can go for the Bintan trip. Although it's dangerous a time slot.
It's super close to Asia Conf. too. Gahh. Why are things so packed right after O's? And my parents are talking about going overseas during the Bintan trip. Without me? Devastation.
Ah wells. Gotta go chiong some work now before tmr comes. Ta-ta.
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What do you do when it seems as if the whole world's against you?
Break down and cry?
Stand there and stone?
Pick yourself up and stand strong?
Ignore it and carry on?
Come on, face it. Face the music.
The enemy has been defeated.
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Tuesday, August 5
You are the wind beneath my wings
You lift me up when I'm falling.
Who else but you can do such a thing?
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Heard something today.
How would you react?
Is it right to do such a thing?
What would you do?
What's right and what's wrong to you?
There're so many conflicting issues in there.
Which path would you choose?
I choose guidance.
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Monday, August 4
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAIHAN!
You've been an interesting AM/EM partner to sit beside, always so excited and enthusiastic. Your "blur" smile never fails to make me laugh even when I'm not feeling so well. =) Thank you dear, for just being you. =)
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Got Jodi Picoult's "Plain Truth" from Pearl and Mel. C today for my birthday. =)
Geez, this stupid security pop-up thing is getting irritating. Ah wells.
Night study today, tonight was fun.
Anthropomorphism= the attribution of human characteristics or behavior to a god, animal or object.
I learnt a new word today, during the ENG consultation. =) They spelt the word wrongly in the question paper. Haha. Made me go downstairs to get a dictionary specially for teacher to check the word. I learn something new today. =)
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I found joy.
I found love.
I found hope.
I found peace.
I found that success without sacrifice is nothing.
I found that living without serving is a waste of lifetime.
I found out that sadness is nothing compared to the joy I will receive.
I found out that to give is to receive.
I found out that I already have an example to learn from.
I found trust.
What is life without knowledge?
We are designed to keep learning, to keep improving.
Not to be a perfectionist, but to strive towards perfection.
They're different. Striving towards perfection means looking forward, moving forward, improving ourselves constantly. To be a perfectionist means that you think you can be perfect, that you can do things perfectly. But who knows that it is not true? No one is perfect except one. He is our example. That's why he's perfect.
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2 people with the same goal may be able to work together, but they might not be able to get along well together.
Because they have the same goal, they'll tend to be more competitive against each other.
Yet, they will be willing to work alongside each other, helping each other, which in turn is indirectly helping themselves.
2 people with the same personality may be able to live together, but not work together. If both are the timid type, then they would be too giving to the other, not taking initiative to step out. If both are the ambitious type, then it would be too competitive, things can get dangerous between them.
I would love having a dog, because dogs are always and forever loyal to their owners. Even in a life and death situation, dogs are willing to brave the danger to save their master. There have been many cases of this man's best friends sacrificing their own life to save their masters. Wow. That kind of sacrificial love, how many can do that? I want to be able to look to the better good, not only for myself, i want to have that personality of a loyal friend, like a dog always giving towards their master, helping the owner get sandals, newspapers, serving the owner. I want to serve witht hat kind of attitude. A willing heart and a giving mind.
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Sunday, August 3
I got a Rubik's 4x4 today! =)
During tuition! =)
Hmmm, I've got like 3 books for my birthday.
TinTin Volume 8, Egmont Version
TinTin Volume 3, Little,Brown Version (which is also Egmont version Volume 4)
Jodi Picoult, Harvesting the heart.
Was reading the summary of some of Jodi Picoult's other books yesterday.
Super good. Wanted to buy all the books.
I love Keeping Faith, Change of Heart, 19 Minutes, 10th Circle, The Pact...
Basically every book she has written. The way she makes the summary and the story so intriguing is absolutely beyond words. Yet I've only read Sister's Keeper.
No wonder she's a bestseller.
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WANTS
♥ TGG/TSG
♥better results in school!
♥CGSNPCC maintain GOLD
♥2X2 Rubik's ICEoriginal
♥4X4 Rubik's Original
♥5X5 Rubik's Original
♥Novels (check 030808/040808's posts)
♥TinTin comics (check 030808's posts)
♥NICI Lion Keychain! =)
♥A scrapbook filled with pictures of lions, birds and cute dogs!
LOVES
♥ SUNshines '05-08!
♥ Aurora the PolarBear
♥ An animal=LION
♥ CHC/e412
♥ CGSNPCC
♥ TinTin comics
♥ Novels