because Your words roar louder than any others.

Back from ATC!

Thinking back, I really had fun during the past few days. Although it was not THAT exciting, after all those activities, I feel that it was really fun.

ATC DAY 1
We got into our groups and pitched our tents. Since Crescent was sitting at the front of each group, we ended up being the group ICs. Then we checked our logistics and pitched our tents. We (Crescentians) found out that other schools and other areas have many different ways of pitching tents and pegging. My group's tent ended up quite nicely and we finished rather early, so we walked around to help the other groups and then we went up to the boys' campsite to help them with pitching their tent. Found out that some of them do not know how to fold the door flap up, so we had to do it for them, while they just stood there, staring. Then we had dinner/wash-up time. After that, the camp OC gave a short speech and then we were told our group's CIs and spilt up to talk and interact with our group CI. Lights out at 11. Talked for a while and then left to sleep.

ATC DAY 2
Had to fall in by 6 am. Flag raising and then we had pt. It was not as bad as I thought. This pt and the pt we did in school had a VERY VERY VERY BIG gap in between. But the pt made our shirts dirty, since the floor was wet with morning dew. Then we had breakfast. My group had Pioneering, followed by lunch, Land Expeditition and lastly, ATF. ATF was fun since my group got to do the Jane and Tarzan obstacles. The Sir said that they very rarely open up those 2 obstacles, and he had only opened it twice in his life there, us being the second group. Then we had wash-up and a quick dinnner, which was followed by the campfire. We had to go to the sec3s campsite for it. We cheered all the way there and fall in-ed at the foyer. Then we were told that we had almost an hour to practise for the campfire performance. So we went to the field to practise and add some cheers on since we didnt have enough time. Then the ma'ams joined us. After the campfire, we went to celebrate our Sir's birthday! That night was a marathon night, so everyone could go to sleep at anytime before 2am.

ATC DAY 3
Fall in at 6am. Then unpitched our tents and then had area cleaning. Sadly, mine and hyeon's group got the toilet duty.
SORRY HYEON!
After that, we did a cheer together with area 20. Then we set off to the sec3s ATC campsite. Found out that we were waiting for the van to take us back tot he jetty. Did some cheers while waiting for the van. Well, at least the other school let us go first, since we were girls. Then we left for the main island. On the bus back to the school, most of the people were sleeping. It was so fun on the bus, for those who paid attention. =)))

Thinking back, there were many beautiful memories shared with Area 20 and Shuqun Sec during the ATCamp.

SOMETIMES I WONDER...

Is everything lost once we leave the world?

Once we leave this wonderful world, is all that we learn lost? Are the differences that we have made gone? Will the world grieve for another's departure? People are dying everyday, every hour, every minute, and yet, people are born almost when others are dying.

HOLYistheLORD-
NPCCismyLIFE-

thisLION roared at 4:21 PM.

Hmm. There's the AT Camp tomorrow. Hope I'll not make a fool of myself and Crescent NPCC. Hope that we'll live up to the name of Crescent NPCC.

They're choosing the new hierarchy soon. Wonder what positition I will get. Wonder if I'm considered good enough for the position I want, which many others also desire.

SOEMTIMES I WONDER...

Do we get what we deserve?
Or, is our life already decided what we'll get when we're born?

dowegetwhatweDESERVE-
Working hard for something, and getting back soemthing else as a reward for your hard work. Giving people what's due to them.

decidedLIFE-
Working hard for soemthing, only to get the same treatment as others who have not been contributing as much as you did.

Is it worth it to work hard for something that's not confirmed? Is it worth it when so many others are fighting for that place too?

Why the hell can they not co-operate? Why must they drag the time and waste it all, only to do it on another day, when on that day everyone was there? Why? Are you thus irresponsible that you cannot make clear what's work and personal? Must you do this? It's not fair to us. And why is it that whenever we do this, we get humiliated, and when you do the same thing, everyone just leaves you? Why is it? Why is it that only you can do such, but others cannot? Are we inferior to you? We aren't. If youa re this kind of person, then don't ever think that you can steal away that position that does not belong to you, as much as I want it too, I'd rather give it to someone else rather than you. I'm sure there are many more who are much more capable than you, much more deserving with qualitites much more superior than yours. You do not deserve that title. I believe that you have to work hard for what you want, whether the thing is destinied to be yours or not. I have not seen your diligence to such. And I doubt that they have too. For I can at least proudly say that I have given my best to all matters concerning it, my very best.

I want that place too, and I shall fight for it, not to the death, but to the very last of my passion. Should someone who does not deserve the place get it, it will spell the end of my passion.

I believe that only the best will get the best, and the worst shall receive the worst, for they have made no effort to prevent their falling down.

I believe that for ALL humans, responsibility is one of the most important qualities. Without responsibility, there is no trust. No one can trust someone without responsibility, someone who cannot finish their assignments by the deadline, no one.

What would you do if you were in our shoes? Would you do the same? Or would you change? When will you realise your mistakes? You are thus eager to notify me of my mistakes, but there is no one who is willing to correct yours. For this, I am glad, because at least I know my mistakes, so I can try to correct them, but for you, you will never know yours until it is too late! Change your attitude and people will start treating you like a friend.

HOLYistheLORD-
NPCCismyLIFE-

thisLION roared at 8:57 PM.

Hoooray! Finally got to watch dEAthN0tE! It was nice la, but then they only filmed like the first 3 books of the whole dEAthN0tE.

We had a hard time trying to find each other at the MRT station! Ended up meeting at PC Bunkkk! Stared at the people inside playing AuditionSEA for so long, which made us unable to have lunch, since the movie was starting in almost half an hour's time. Had to sit at the 4th front row since the tickets were sellign fast and there was no seat left. Met Mel's friend. Sensei???

I also bought a dEAthN0tE necklace. Got the name, age, birth, blood thing on it. It's quite nice la. Mel also bought one. Anyway, we (mel, marie and I) walked around Plaza for quite a while. Went down 2 floors only to go all the way to the other side of the Plaza to go up to Yamaha. Then went down one floor to go to the other side to take the escalator, since we didn't realise that there was an escalator on that side too. Then we went down to B2 and then to the MRT station.

After that, I went to VIVOCITY to meet my parents. Oh wells. Too many people there.

SOMETIMES I WONDER...

Is our world black and white?
Or, is our world in color?

aworldinBLACK&WHITE-
Scientifcally, there is only white light. The colors we see all come from white light. They are just reflected off the surface of the object, not actually absorbed into the object. As for black, it is the opposite of white. Without light, then the world will be in darkness, black.

aworldinCOLOR-
We can see the different colors of this world. Without color, the world would only be black and white, which will not make things interesting. Color brings interest into our daily lives. Is color that important to us or can we live in a world of black and white? Is this world truly in color?

SOMETIMES I WONDER...

Is love suppossed to be eternal?
Or, is love just temporary?

ETERNALlove-
Living together as one heart forever, basking in each other's love. Knowing that your other half is with you always, forever.

TEMPORARYlove-
Love that has grown old and gone. Falling for another when he/she already has a love. Loving 2 people at the same time. Love that lasts only for a while.

SOMETIMES I WONDER...

HOLYistheLORD-
NPCCismyLIFE-

thisLION roared at 6:56 PM.

ARGH! My parents insist on me learning how to play the freaking keyboard during the December hols!

Hope the lessons won't clash with the npcc sessions.

I wonder...

Is life cruel?
Or, is life gentle?

cruelLIFE-
Having to handle all those setbacks and failures, when we should be living in happiness, as we shohuld treat each day like its our last.

gentleLIFE-
We get to enjoy the wonder of love, the beauty of the world, the mysteries of the deepest oceans and the view from the tallest mountains.

Sometimes I wonder...
Are humans truly the greatest living beings in this world?

HUMANSaretheGREATEST-
We have managed to build houses, dominate and tamed animals. We have uncovered some of the greatest mysteries in this world.

HUMANSarenttheGREATEST-
Many animals have ways of living which are much better than how humans do, and much more creative. Though we may be able to dominate animals, there are still instances where we are unable to control them, like stampedes.

Sometimes I wonder...

If humans had not dominated the world and took charge, how would the world look like? Primitive or would other animals dominate the world?

Primitive-
The world would be like it was before, when dinosaurs roamed the Earth. Animals would still be feeding on each other, as in the food chain. There would hardly be changes for a mordern world.

otherANIMALSDOMINATEtheworld-
The world would be modern, but, it might not be as modern as humans would make the world. If so, which animal kingdom would take over? Lions, the King of the Beasts? Tigers, the King of the Jungle? Eagles, the Eyes of the world(or so they were called)?

I WONDER...

HOLYistheLORD-
NPCCismyLIFE-

thisLION roared at 9:44 PM.

I bought a new bag today! Sometimes I wonder, were we born to die or were we born to live?

BORNtoDIE-
Living a life of nothingness, since we all have to die in the end.

BORNtoLIVE-
Living a life of meaning, treating each day as your last day on Earth.

To die or to live?

Even if we live, how many people on Earth actually acknowledge our presense?
But if we die, how many people will feel the loss of our presense?
Why were we born to this world in the very first place?
Were we born to live a life of torture?
Or were we born to live a life of happiness?

LIFEofTORTURE-
Being tortured everyday, unable to be happy because you're being tortured. Having to do so much work but yet unable to get the credit for it all.

LIFEofHAPPINESS-
Living a life of happiness, glad for every small thing.

Is this life worth living? No one in this world is willing to do everything for someone, and yet get nothing in return forever! There is no one in this world who is thus gracious!

Am I being optimistic or pessimistic?
Sometimes I feel that I'm pessimistic,
Others I feel that I'm rather optimistic.
So which am I? Optimistic? Pessimistic?

Oh wells. This is the mystery of life, that even humans cannot answer or even find out the truth, for this is how the world was made.

HOLYistheLORD-
NPCCismyLIFE-

thisLION roared at 5:35 PM.

I'm feeling VERYVERYVERYVERY sad.

My results are not what I had expected them to be. I hope that with the kind of results I have, it will be able for me to get into my dream class.

I have decided. I am going to take PURE geography and ELECTIVE literature. I shall give history a miss. Actually, I like all three, geography, literature and history. But then, I score better in literature and geography is easy, just plain memorising all the information.

NPCC. Not everyone did the freaking posters! WCTACADTFP?!!! (All letters are the first letter of each word) And the banner designs! OH HELP ME LORD!

Oh help me, Lord! Help me to overcome this setback. I dream not of those that I know I am unable to get, I just want what I really do deserve. Just what do I deserve? NOTHING? For all that I have done? Help me, oh Lord, help me.

Give me the strength to go on.
Help me find my purpose in life.
Help me to calm down.
Help me to think postively.
Help me, Oh Lord, mighty as you are.

The truth hurts, does it not?
Reality is harsh, is it not?
Lies are cruel, are they not?
Love is blind, is it not?

dYiNG SlOWlY iN MY POOl Of blOOd-

HOLYistheLORD-
NPCCismyLIFE-

thisLION roared at 2:46 PM.

Heys! The exams are FINALLY over! Ok, its a bit late to say this, but then I couldn't go online, thus the late post.

Anyway, now school got a lot of boring POST-EXAM ACTIVITIES. A- MATH BRIDGING COURSE, CHEMISTRY... and goodness knows what!!

Oh wells, not that I can do anything about it.

Ohh. I found out that there's a mouse that loves me on my tagboard. It (no gender, apparently) tagged that ,"I LOVE YOU" there. ADMIRER?? OMG! Ahh, wells. I seriously have no idea who the hell this mouse-y is. And there's another ANNOYMOUSE asking for CHEESE and FOOD from my FRIDGE! GOODNESS GRACIOUS! What's with all those mice?

Oh, wells. Hope to know who the MOUSE is. White mice are cute, ya know. Lab mice. Hmm. Some mice are cute, some aren't. Depends.

Hmm. School ending soon. Have to prepare for next year's SECONDARY ONE ORIENTATION soon. FANCY DRILLS have to spend loads of time. That means we have to come down for many NPCC sessions to practice. FUN!

There are POSTERS and BANNERS to be done. Hope mine aren't too shabby.

Ah wells. Going out soon. Gotta get ready. BYEEE!

GLORYintheLORD-
NPCCismyLIFE-

thisLION roared at 11:56 PM.

Whoots! Now, only Science is left.

Art was alright, I think. Well, at least all my prep work were finished. I wonder how my history was. Hope I didn't do too badly. Oh wells. What's past is past. Shan't brood over it no more.

Now, the focus shall be on SCIENCE! WONDERFUL SCIENCE! EXCITING SCIENCE! THE WONDER OF SCIENCE!

Shall go off to study SCIENCE!

Holy is the LORD.
NPCC. is my life.

thisLION roared at 8:29 PM.

GOODNESS! HMT PAPER IS FINALLY OVER!

I'm not sure if I did well in paper 1, cos the question was, "一个难忘的微笑", meaning, in english, "An Unforgettable Smile". They gave a simple question to see how we would all phrase it as in our compo. I had no choice. Anyways, I had wanted to do the narrative question all along, why else would I bother to memorise all those good phrases?

Oh wells. I don't think I used many phrases though, but I think I did use quite a few idioms and stuff. I wrote about the genuine smile on a person's face after you have helped him/her. Well, it was the only one I could think off. I don't think I went out of point though.

I did the formal letter. External Letter. Because the freaking Internal Letter was so freaking difficult. But then I found out that SO MANY people also wrote theExternal Letter. Maybe I should have chosen the Internal Letter. But, what's done is done. There's nothing I can do about it, only to hope for the best!

Then for the second paper. There was a "综合填空". That means, you choose the correct option for the passage between the 4 choices. It may seem easy, but, believe me, its not as easy as it seems. The 4 given options were so freaking close to each other! Only if you actually knew the word and how it was used, then you can choose the right answer. I think got some words that we haven't learnt one. That's why they asked us to read more books. Oh wells.

After that, there were 4 comprehension passages. 2 were relatively short, got one short answer question, some MCQs and 2 questions on finding the words from the passage. Half-way while doing the first comprehension, I remembered that the passages behind were worth a whooping 50 marks! That's more than half the total paper!
So i skipped the 2nd comprehension passage to finish the 2 passages behind, which were so long! All the questions, or most of them, were basically thinking questions, that means, the answer CANNOT be found in the passage! INFERRING! I had until 1.13 to finish the paper, but, it was only 12.17 when I was finishing the summary part, which happens to be the LAST question of the entire paper! Excluding the front passage, though.

So, SURPRISINGLY, I finished the paper at 12.40. Then I was like sitting there, staring at the clock,wondering HOW IN THE WORLD DID I FINISH THE 2 HOUR PAPER IN 1 HOUR AND 20 MINUTES!!!

I thought that maybe I had missed a question or something, then I checked. HELL NO! All the questions were done and for the comprehension part, I had written quite alot for the answers! Having nothing to do, I decided to take a nap, but was disrupted from my break. Thus I decided to just stare and pretend to check my papers.

But then, I ended up counting the total marks for the whole paper, when the marks was already on the front page! After that, goodness knows how, I ended up, trying to count and figure out how they counted the overall marks for our streaming! Oh wells, I was bored.

Somehow, I survived throught the 40 minute wait! REJOICE!

THANK YOU LORD!
THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THE STRENGTH TO GO ON!
THANK YOU FOR NOT ABANDONING ME WHEN I WAS DOWN!
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!
I THANK YOU, LORD!
I WOULDN'T HAVE MADE IT THIS FAR WITHOUT YOU, WITHOUT YOUR HELP, YOUR GUIDANCE!
WITHOUT YOU, LORD, I'D BE NOTHING!

Let me live forever in your glory, oh LORD.
NPCC is my life.

thisLION roared at 8:20 PM.

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!

BAM!BAM!BAM!
BOOM!BOOM!BOOM!
BANG!BANG!BANG!

CELEBRATE CHILDREN'S DAY even if you aren't a child. BUT, YOU MUST BE A CHILD AT HEART!

thisLION roared at 6:41 PM.