With the ROAR of a lion.

2009-11-09T20:45:00.001+08:00

You're the love of my life
No one else matters
In this world
But you
No one can take
Your place in my heart
No one like you.

2009-11-05T14:41:00.002+08:00

Some things aren't as easy to speak of lightly as others. Certain things like grouupwork, faithfulness, accountability, loyalty...

People around us are constantly searching for answers, answers to questions they have in their life. So what do we do, those who have already found their answer? Help others find theirs. There is only 1 answer, as we know, but many don't know, don't realise.

I owe you if I do not share with you what I have.

As a friend, a sister, a daughter, I'd like good things to happen to the people around me too, not only to me. The good news I know, I want to share. Will you be willing to listen? I pray for that short 5-10 minutes.

Throughout our growing years, we've heard more than enough phrases of adults saying: Don't trust anyone, only your family are reliable. And sometimes even they aren't. Sure, not everyone is reliable, if they were, there wouldn't be liars and crimes now. o.o

How do you know who to trust? On what basis in your trust upon?

Have you found the person who you know you can trust no matter what?

2009-11-05T02:48:00.002+08:00

Patience, tolerance, determination, persistance.

We talk about these so easily, throw these words out of our mouths without caring about the impact it has on others. A new season where you are tested, where your own strength is not enough, you need to know when to depend on others, who to depend on. Examinations in schools may be easy, but tests in life are never the case. Yet with these tests come the results, survive through it and you gain a whole new season of experiences, a season of enlargement.

It's never easy climbing to greater heights, that's why doing down stairs is so much easier than climbing the stairs. So why do you climb? Because you get more exercise when you CLIMB instead of WALKING down. Because you gain the capacity to climb more, endure more when you dare to go higher, willing to go higher. That's why I want to climb, all the days of my life. I climb so I can help others up. To let others see the world from a different perspective.

Our life is constantly about tests, how we go through it, survive through it and live through it, so will you emerge victorious? Or will you fumble and fall?

I choose to end victoriously.

2009-10-30T23:50:00.002+08:00

Haven't posted in a long long long while. D: Decided to try to revive this blog once again! :D

Haha. I've got such exciting news to share, can't wait for it, but can't say anything yet until it's officially announced. D: New season, new beginning, new experiences. :D

Nice nice Jacob bought me a lion today! :D How nice. :D He just came back from the washroom and showed me that lion that looks so similar to his. Haha. Shall attempt to upload a pic of it soon. I realised some similarity between all the lions that I have. :D

It's just giong to be a short post now. I'll try longer ones next time. Hopefully I can sustain this blog. :D Fuel my love for lions. :D

Tata.

2009-07-19T08:26:00.002+08:00

I haven't been updating my blog in a long long while. Haha. :D The past months have really taught me something.

Change is the only constant.

We change because we're imperfect. We change because we need to. We change because we're affected by our circumstances. We change because we mature. Only the perfect does not change. I look at my own life and find vast differences, 10 years ago and the me now. Those who know me now, would you ever have imagined that I was once so isolated from people that I didn't want to talk to strangers, spent time with only 1 person everyday, didn't mix around at all. Now, some of my friends who only knew me this year may be surprised. Have I really changed that much?

How do people who have never tried to understand others/ others tried to understand me, try to relate to others? These are skills to be taught and caught. You can't get everything from books. Sure, you can read about the skills, but ultimately you need to experience it and use the skills yourself.

I learnt. I'm not adept at it yet. But it's been fun learning. I like the change. People who don't like changes are stuck in the same place forever; because changes are everywhere. The atmosphere is changing, people around you are changing, circumstances are changing... In this ever-changing world, it is those who embrace change and are able to adapt to it who will experience the best of life.

2009-05-12T23:16:00.003+08:00

Little blobs. ;D

Awesome design. :D

Amazing no?

Who lives in a shoe? This sounds vaguely familiar, eh?

Hmmm, I would have loved it if there was one in the image of a LION. :D

Erps. I highly doubt this is a real pic, is it? o.o

I bet the person who lives in it watched a certain Sponge cartoon character when he/she was young. :D

Musical, no?

Pretty no?

Cool, no?;D

:D Wonder how it stands.

Interesting no?

Futuristic no?

Unnique no?

As you see all these pictures, ever wondered where their creativity came from? How did these architects' creative juices flow? How did they think that their design would work?

Well, they tried.

I look at this and I'm amazed. :D Wow. He gives.
These ideas were put into these designers for a reason.
To show the world His creativity.
To bring to light what Man has long misunderstood Him for. His creativity.

Creativity is the liveliness of the mind. :D
How lively is His mind?

Wait no longer. Take the step of faith.
Step out and be bold. :D

Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this.

2009-05-12T23:09:00.002+08:00

I'm too far gone to turn back now.
I'm too deep in love with You.
Far beyond what words can express,
It's the desire that burns strong.
Nothing else can deter me away,
From the road You went.
I'll go the same way as You did,
Even though You gave me a choice:
To choose the easy or hard way out,
But my mind was set upon,
And I chose Your way,
Though difficult, but yet so easy,
Because You are there beside me.

Love covers. It protects.
Love refreshes. It energizes.
Love edifies. It praises.
That is all that You are.
And more. Much much more.
You are Love in itself.
In essence and in truth.
This is more than just words,
more than just letters.
This is the longing I have,
For a love like You.

2009-05-12T23:08:00.001+08:00

THERE IS NO GREATER LOVE THAN YOURS
NOTHING ELSE COULD EVER COMPARE
EVEN IF SEARCH ALL THE WORLD
I WILL NEVER FIND A LOVE LIKE YOURS

2009-05-12T21:40:00.002+08:00

There are a thousand and one different types of houses and more, but how many of them are actually homes?

Yes, there is a difference.

By definition from dictionary.com, a house is simply a building in which people live; residence for human beings. A home, however, is a place in which one's domestic affections are centered.

You may live in a house, but is it your home? Are you able to be yourself in the place? Are you able to do things in the house without feeling weird? Do you feel accepted in the place?

Sometimes, we all take our homes for granted. We somehow fail to realise that there're so many people out there who would be so willing to take our place, to be given a chance to live in a home where there's love and comfort; to be able to stay so close to your loved ones; to be able to be accepted just the way they are. There are many who have been forced to leave their homes for various reasons: work, education, disasters... Many whose homes have been wrecked by disasters happening.

If we don't cherish this home that we have, one day it will be taken from us. We need to be appreciative and grateful for what we have, so that we can give to those who don't.

One day, I want to build a house as pretty as those above, and call it my home. It's not simply an architectural structure that you're building, it's a family.

2009-05-03T11:42:00.003+08:00

I was just wondering about something I noticed. It's something that I've posted before too, but I feel like addresssing it again. Haha.

Isn't it somewhat sad how some people are so disbelieving? That they just wouldn't trust another person. That they want to see to believe. But if you can see it, how is it trusting? How is it having the faith to believe? It's already there.

Isn't it ironic how everyone wants evidence, everyone wants the facts before they're willing to believe? Come on, we're humans, we can't have everything we want. We can't dig out all the facts we want.

If the person really doesn't want to believe, no amount of facts and truths will be able to make him/her believe, because after every evidence presented to him/her, he/she will come up with more questions to stump you. If the person wants to believe, he/she will trust you and have faith in you that you are saying the right things, that you are reliable, because he/she knows that in the end, you will be able to produce results. That is called having faith.

The most profound form of faith is ultimately the one where a perfect being believes in an imperfect being, despite seeing him/her fail countless times. That is when you know nothing else can ever stop you from achieveing what you want to, because you've got the trust of someone higher.

We're all in this moderized society, all we can do is to try our very best, do what we can, and the rest would just work out by itself. Especially in someplace where things are very competitive, all the more we have to our best to shine above the rest.

Come on, have faith in yourself, as someone else does.

2009-05-03T11:39:00.003+08:00

Yo. Haven't posted in a while. Quite a while. Haha. :D

Yupp, council investiture was finally over last Wed, putting an end to the many rehearsals we had, and marking the start of our new journey with the shiny golden badge! :D

2009-04-01T22:48:00.002+08:00

April's Fool at VJC was awesome! :D

First, early in the morning, we were greeted Merry Christmas. Then there was this great freeze in the canteen, where a lot of people just froze. The main point is that a teacher joined in too! haha. There was this part in the canteen that was boarded off because it was "reserved".

Then they tried to have this VJC Nissan Challenge with another teacher's car, where the winner would win away the car. :D

Then the usual "out of order" signs were pasted everywhere, on the plasma tvs, water coolers.
The funniest thing in the canteen was the toilet bowl at the middle of the empty stall. Really a toilet bowl. haha.

All the annnouncements in the morning assembly were super funny too, including not washing your hands after going to the toilet so that you can save water, together with the Earth Hour thing. Gosh. Another was that LT1 was flooded and that any lessons in LT1 would have to be shifted to the field. lol.

Then some of the cars in front of the LTs had this pasted on them : This car affects the movement of students from the canteen to the LTs... please move them or something like that.

Then what my class did for the first lesson with our CT was that we all faced the back of the class for the whole lesson. We had to present our answers, so we just had to use the back of the class, the walls for our presentation. o.o lol. But we used paper la.

Halfway through the lesson, mayer and jonathan suddenly came in, saying that they wanted to do a survey for infocomm (ever the useful excuse) and just stood behind us. Then our CT was like asking what class they were from and they said they were from our senior class. Then after that he asked them to see what was wrong with the question that was presented on the board. Then mayer tried to leave after that. lol.
And it turned out the half the senior class was outside our class waiting. haha. :D

I heard mayer crashed the econs lecture too, but since i didn't take econs, i dont really know what happened. lol.

There were also a number of people who faked illnesses and stuff. Quite amusing.

There were also a few classes who exchanged uniforms. As in, the guys wore girls skirts and the girls wore the guys pants. it was super hilarious lol.

Can't wait for next year's April's fool. Wonder how it'll be like. :D

2009-04-01T21:55:00.002+08:00

Hmm, my posts haven't been very up to date so far. o.o
ah wells.

Been pretty busy these few weeks. Don't really feel like posting. LOL.
But there're people who're much busier than me. So I can't exactly complain.
I'm pretty excited for this sat though. It's going to be very fun! :D

Quite a few things have been happening these few days and I've learnt quite a bit from the people around me. No matter what happens, there's always a reason for us to be optimistic and to cheer ourselves on, believing that there's always someone for you to depend on.

Some things may not go so smoothly for us but we were sent not to give up on the race halfway, we took part in the race not to stop and walk back without finishing, but we were sent to finish the race which we've started. So no matter what, I'm going to finish this race and trust in the wonders that have been planned ahead for me.

There's no speculation here. i do not need to see to believe. I already do, because it's the truth that's in my heart. If I need to see before I can believe, then what kind of trust or faith is that? o.o Come on, be serious. You don't need to actually see it to believe it. It's there. You just know that it's there.

2009-03-23T20:58:00.002+08:00

Camp's been ~~FUN AMAZING AWESOME TREMENDOUS MINDBLOWING~~ EYEPOPPING! :D

I've really been impressed through the camp, no matter the time and activity.
I think this camp's taught me more than any other NPCC camp could have and I'm eager for the invest day to near.

The 18ths are really a bunch of very different people: quiet, loud, expressive, full of ideas, decisive... tthe list goes on and on. Yet, throughout the camp, we were able to work together, as a group, as a council, throughout the various activities. We cared for one another, showing care and concern for our fellow councilmates.

I really think that the 18ths will be the council where everyone will be able to help each other, to aid the others' weakness, where every area of our activities and events will be covered fully and wonderfully. :D

And even now, I'm still getting amazed by the way his hand has moved here. Silent yet powerful. Such amazing grace. To forgive. To disciple. It really doesn't matter to him who you are, all that he wants is your heart.

Been given a purpose.
Told to live out our destiny.
This is my cry.
I want more of you.

2009-03-16T18:33:00.001+08:00

There's only one on whom I depend.

NO ONE ELSE CAN TOUCH MY HEART
LIKE YOU DO
I COULD SEARCH FOR ALL ETERNITY LONG
AND FIND
THERE IS NONE LIKE YOU

2009-03-16T14:42:00.002+08:00

Seems like 'quick post' on google apps aren't working. Either that or I don't know how to work it. lol.

My holidays are here. But it's practically gone thanks to various activities I have on during the week. Ah wells. It's okay. :D
Blogging time seems to be hard to earn nowadays, what with ending late and all the tutorials and lecture notes to look through before the next tutorial/lecture. (not that I actually look through them anyway o.o :D)

Love covers.
Grace covers.
Everything you've done, be sure to know that someone has done that before you.
There is a difference between those prepared for eternity and those not.
There is a difference between those who know what they're living for and those not.
There is a difference between those who know they're loved and those not.
There is a difference between those who know and understand that things are always in His control and those not.

2009-02-26T13:04:00.002+08:00

Thank you daddy!
I love this new tablet pc! =)

Yupp, it's HBL (Home-based learning) now, and the lot of us are at Annia's house, supposedly to do the Biology Protein model structure thing. But they're having Econs tutorial now and my CSE stuff are done, so I'm here. =)

It's pretty boring though.
So I'm exploring my brand new computer, I just got it last night. =)
Awesome eh? =)

Okok, I shall blog more another time. Need to finish up something.
Until next time then.

2009-02-18T19:17:00.001+08:00

But the waves are calling out my name
and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giants they keep on telling me
time and time again
"Boy, you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "Do not be afraid"
and the voice of truth says "This is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

2009-02-07T12:15:00.002+08:00

V! Viva! Viva La Victoria!

Oh man, I never knew what was already planned ahead of me before I even thought of it.
How could I doubt the one who created history and planned the future?
I love Victoria!
And I'm hooked on to the college anthem.
It sounds so nice.

OG Ivanhoe, sub-OG iOwn!
It was a great 5 days with you peeps, I really enjoyed orientation with you guys.
Yesterday was the sea carnival at east coast park, so the whole sch made their way down there, since we're located so near there. o.o
The games were fun, yes, definitely.
But unfortunately, iOwn was quite tired after giving almost all we've got the previous day, to do our part in helping our OG Ivanhoe get 3rd place from 6th place.
So we slacked quite a bit, and thought we'd just turn up for the games, cause the first 2 games were pretty tiring and painful. o.o
Then came tug-of-war, which we didn't really want to play, but in the end we decided to just play for fun, lose also nevermind. o.o
But we owned the other group. The tug-of-war seemed effortless. o.o
And so was the volleyball, thanks to Leonard. Haha. But it was not a one-man show nonetheless. :P

Yupp, in the end, there was this jousting competition, which we got bored of and decided to throw stones into the sea and try skipping them.
I managed to skip the stone once or twice. o.o
Then the jousting competition ended, so everyone near the water tried to drag their friends into the water.
o.o Sadly, I was beside Kenneth when it started, so I got dragged down by him. o.o
I wasn't ready for it and swallowed quite a lot of sea water. o.o Salty.
After putting on my sunglasses again, I walked into the water to see Kenneth dunking Leonard. Then Kenneth turned around and banged into me, and then he lost his balance cause Loenard jujmped on him, so all 3 of us fell into the water again. o.o
Geez.

The results for the class posting came out! I got the combi I want.
class S35! Greg said my class should be in the Draco house. Awesome.
He also said my class has alot of PRC scholars. Okayyy.
That, to me, had another meaning, esppecially in this time and age.

Ah wells, after that, Leonard, Joshua, Jeanette and i cabbed to Jeanette's house, while the guys went to Joshua's. Then the guys came to pick us up to go to Parkway for sub-og lunch/dinner.
And since the 7 of us couldn't exacctly squeeze into the table at Sakae, Leonard and I sat at the side table. lol. It was interesting watching how much food the others ordered and how many times the waitress went over to their table. lol.

Finally, it was the Mass dance @Suntec at night. The bus was so crowded lo. The dances were awesome, although we couldn't really remember much of it and had to follow the seniors. But I bet everyone had fun.

The sunburns on my face, arms, feet, ears and neck were itching so much I kept scratching it, only to stop and cringe when the pain came. o.o I couldn't even laugh properly. o.o

Yeah, VJC Orientation '09 was awesome, because I was with IV4, iOwn.

2009-01-30T18:41:00.002+08:00

Really, I learnt quite a lot during this trip to Bangkok, something I never noticed on my previous trips there.

For the people there, life can be just so simple.
Everyday, it's a routine.
They do the same things, speak the same words.
Yet the people are happy with the simplest of things.
They don't need expensive cars or luxurious apartments to keep them entertained, all they need are their friends and family around them, they survive quite comfortably with just enough.

I was then reminded of my life in Singapore.
How I can live the way I want, without any worries about my next meal, or where I'm going to sleep at night.
How lucky we are, to be here in Singapore, yet so many of us don't realise how fortunate we are to be staying here in Singapore, where we don't need to worry about our stuff getting stolen on the streets...

Life there is more than just working and getting to the top, getting recognised world wide for your abilities.
Sometimes, in this fast paced society, we fail to see that there is another side to life.

2009-01-30T18:39:00.001+08:00

Bangkok was fun.
Except for the walking part. o.o

I shall attempt to upload pictures some time later, once I get the pictures into the computer.

POSTING RESULTS ARE OUT!
& I am VJC-headed.

2009-01-27T07:10:00.000+08:00

Going off to Bangkok soon.
This is being typed at the airport. o.o

Today was... interesting. o.o
I'm amused at the kiasu-ness of people, not neccessarily Singaporeans only.

I have a sudden craving for laksa. o.o

Until next time, folks.

2009-01-23T17:34:00.003+08:00

Things aren't as simple as we think they are sometimes.
Sometimes, you just need to notice the little details in between and work it out.

"The stone that the builders rejected has become the chief cornerstone."

What you think is going to happen may not come true, because humans don't know their future.
We can't create anything.
We aren't the creators.
We are the supporters, the co-workers.
We are living creatures, the created.

Sometimes we rush ahead of ourselves, thinking we can do things better, without any help.
But the truth stands before us. We can't.
We can only support creation, but not create.
Cause only someone pure and true can create.

Its true.
When you walk close to a perfect Person, you realise how insignificant you are.
How weak you are.
How proud you are.

But, despite that, he doesn't despise you.
He picks you up.
He doesn't need you, cause he's perfect, but yet he wants you.
Cause at the end of this Zero Time, he wants to spend eternity with you.
He didn't need to go on the cross for you, but he still went, despite not knowing whether or not you would reject him.

Yet, in spite of everything, he forgives.
He turns weakness into meekness.
He turns arrogance into humility.
He turns fear into faith.
He turns uselessness into service.

Cause when you've experienced the best, you just can't settle for anything less.
He's the best.

INTO YOUR HANDS
I COMMIT AGAIN
WITH ALL I AM

2009-01-13T20:07:00.001+08:00

Everything seems so surreal.
I can't believe it.
It's reality.

Wow.
Amazing.
Powerful.
Awesome.

2009-01-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

Exceedingly, abundantly, above all my expectations and imaginations.
As usual.

The daily dose.

2009-01-11T20:38:00.002+08:00

Results will be out soon.
How quickly time passes by.
It seems like yesterday was only the first day of Sec 4 life, now I'm already waiting for my results to be out.

Everyone seems anxious.
I guess it should be that way.
But then, somehow, I don't really feel the anxiety of it all.
Maybe cause I know that someone is there to see me through.
That no matter what I get, it doesn't really matter to him, cause all he needs is my heart, committed to him.
And he will do the rest.
Yes, he will.

I know which school I want to go to.
I yearn for it.
But then, it's not up to me to decide where to go.
I can't make a decision like this so hastily.
We don't know the future, but it has already been.
It was already written in my Book of life.
He gets the final decision on where I'm going.
Yes, he does.

Unafraid what's ahead
You are always there before
My whole world
Your design
You are always there
Just right behind

2009-01-07T21:31:00.001+08:00

Lol.

Results will be out on Monday, 12 Jan 2009.

2009-01-01T13:35:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

A year has come and gone.
But have we moved on?
The past is past.
And the future's ahead of us.
With courage we will face,
With faith we will ace,
A year of growth and maturity.

How will you face the new year?
Sure, it's uncertain times right now and it isn't exactly the best way to start a new year, but that's reality.
I believe that it is courage and faith that will take us through this new year.
Someone once said this, "Courage is not the absence of fear, but in spite of fear, courage is the knowledge that there is something else more important than fear itself."
New year, new times, new strength, new people, new hope.

I too, don't know what's going to happen in this new year, but I want to believe that everything will turn out right in the end, that this year is going to be the best year yet in all of my 16 years of living.
Instead of hesistating, I'd rather take on this challenge and enjoy it, do it to the best of my abilities.

There are many things I'd like to see and do this new year, I've set the goals and ambitions for myself, but I know that I alone won't be able to do it at all.
I'd need the help of my Friend.
I've been given a new hope for the new year.
And I'll live it out.

2008-12-24T18:59:00.001+08:00

Awesome. A new mp4!
Thank you daddy! =)

2008-12-23T20:02:00.002+08:00

People on the news.
Societies for the needy.
Homes for the orphaned.
Love for the abandoned.
Care for the neglected.

Sometimes, all we need is someone to love us in our life.
"Faith, love and hope, and the greatest of them all is love."
Humans, however perfect we may claim we are, sad to say, are imperfect creations.
We were meant to be perfect, but we chose not to at the first chance, which made us forever imperfect.

However much we hate for it to happen;
humans neglect;
humans abandon;
humans scheme against others;
humans slander...

Surely, at some point of time in your life, you would have hurt someone, maybe with your words or actions.
It is impossible for us to love perfectly.
Where there is fear, there is no perfect love, because, perfect love casts out all fear.
Yet, there is still One who loves with a love so great, so perfect, so sacrificially.

All of us yearn, deep in our hearts, for;
someone who can heal our hearts when broken;
someone who can cheer us up when we're down;
someone who will be there to share our burdens;
someone who will be there to share our joys;
someone who will always want the best for us;
someone who will love us so unconditionally;
someone who will always be there when we are in need;
someone who will teach us what to say when we are speechless;
someone who will guide us along when we are stuck;
someone who will walk beside us and lead us along;
someone who will carry us when we fall;
someone who will lend us a listening ear when we need it.

That someone seems so perfect eh?
But He exists.

Christmas.
The season of giving.
Everyone knows that.
But most celebrate the occassion without even knowing the reason for the season.
It was on this day, 25 Dec, that the greatest man who gave the most was born.
He's the reason we celebrate.

2008-12-11T19:10:00.003+08:00

It's in the human nature to be pessimistic.
To think of only the bad things you've done in the past, to think of only your friends' betrayal, accusation...
It's natural.
It's because we humans now have the knowledge of good and evil.

Yet, how do some people manage to stay optimistic in spite of the negativity surrounding them?
Some things are easier said than done.
Like staying optimistic in difficult times.
But I guess it's only in the belief that when a door is closed, a window will be opened somewhere else.
You just have to find that window.

In this day and time, people want evidence. Facts.
They want to know why optimists can stay optimistic.
They want to know what their belief is on.
They want evidence so that they can stay optimistic.
Optimism is not trusting that something bad will not happen, but knowing that in spite of that happening, you are able to ride over it and learn from it.
We'll always be learning, right? All our life.

I bet, a moment of optimism will bring you much more happiness than a moment of pessimism.
Some people search all their life for evidence to be optimistic, but they never knew that it's right in front of them.
Some people wait all their life for a chance for optimism to come, but when it comes, they back away, unable to face it.

I've found my reason to be optimistic.
And it's not just for a moment.
Its there. For eternity.

SOME PEOPLE WAIT A LIFETIME
FOR A MOMENT LIKE THIS

2008-12-11T19:01:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, pain can be such a sad thing.
Yet, it is in the worst of pains, that, when you stand up again, you become stronger than before.
We've already survived one of the most painful experiences when we first came into the world.
I bet none of us remembers it, but when our mothers gave birth to us, not only was she in pain, but so were we.
That's why babies cry when they first make their appearance.
It's painful.

Like giving birth.
In the worst of pains, a child (or more) is borne to a pair of the happiest parents on earth at that time.
In the worst of pains, a gift from above has finally arrived on earth.
It's only just a moment.
Just a moment of pain, and a life is borne.
How amazing.
How fascinating.
I'd bet its not coincidence that we'd have to go through pain to get to this earth.
Someone had already thought of it.
Thought of the meaning behind it.
Realised the importance of it.
And decided that it should be this way.

2008-12-07T17:45:00.004+08:00

Long time no post.
Yo. I'm back. Finally.

Anyway, today was... acutely interesting.
Went for service.
3 min fellowshipping time.
I turned around and saw someone sitting 2 seats away from me.
We smiled at each other and she introduced herself.

"Hi, I'm Kelly."
"Eh? I'm Kelly too."
Both of us stunned for a moment.
"You're Kelly too? K-E-L-L-Y?"
"Yupp, you too?"
Interesting ehh?
And we both asked each other these questions AT THE SAME TIME.
"How old are you?"
"What school are you in?"
"What's your surname?"
"what's your chinese name?"

Awesome.
Telepathy eh?
Haha.
Her friends who were beside her had the same names as my friends too.

Sometimes things like that happen, and we take it for a coincidence, not realising the meaning behind it.
But how many will realise and look underneath, read between the lines and find out that it's not simply just a coincidence.
I bet its a meeting arranged specially from Someone above.

Things have been so busy these days.
Before Os ended, there were so many things that we wanted to do.
Now, Os have ended, it seems like we have so much time to do the things we want to do, that now we don't feel like doing.
For instance, my blogging.
This is my first post after the Os.
Interesting eh?

So many people have been asking me if I'm going to continue as a CI in NPCC.
I've asked around about the CI course, and if I really am going to continue as a CI, I would already have asked my teachers to help.
If you sign up before the next year, there will be a 2 week course for the CI-in training, but then, if you sign up only the next year, then you'll have to give up many saturdays for the training course.
This, I definitely do not want.
Haha.

Yupp.
Christmas is coming.
Anyone wanna buy a gift for me?
o.O EGO, right?
Yeah, my wish list contains an assortment of things like Wii, books by Phil Pringle, certain music cds... and many more.
Consult me if you'd like to purchase something for me. =)
Or else, I think I'd like anything you get me if its sincere.
I'm not very picky, you know. =)
Grins.

Alrighty.
Till next time.

P.S. Recently, (after I came back from the cruise) I seem to have an acute interest in Harry Potter once more. I have no idea why, or maybe it could be because I was reading HP on the cruise too. Ah wells.

NOTHING IN THIS WORLD
CAN TAKE ME AWAY FROM YOU
OUR LOVE GOES ON AND ON

2008-11-11T17:12:00.002+08:00

The rain can pour on down.
Flooding the roads.
Rushing down the drains.
Flowing through the canals.
Into the rivers and the seas.
You feel the same as the weather.
Everything seems so gloomy.
It feels like everything's going wrong.

Then after,
the sun comes out.
Shining brightly on the grass.
Drying up the rain.
All of a sudden, everything seems to right itself.
You feel bright and happy.
Like nothing can stop you now.

Who's your sun?
What's your sun?

At times when you go through difficulty,
What do you do?
Who do you look for?
Sure, the rain pours down on you,
but like all weather,
sunshine comes after rain.
It will come.
No matter what happens,
sunshine is always promised after rain.

Like every rain, storm or pour,
I always wait for the sun to come out.
Rainstorms are like the valleys that we go through.
Dark, scary.
But so long as we continue walking ahead,
the light at the end of the tunnel will come.
The sun will shine its light.
As promised.

Life's never a bed of roses,
but even if it is,
there will be thorns we'd have to trek through.
We can choose not to walk through the roses,
but then we'll never get used to it,
we'll never get used to going through troubles.
Then when it comes head-on,
we become confused.
We become clueless.

'Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil
For You are with me
Your rod and Your staff
they comfort me.'

Things may not seem right now,
but eventually,
the sun will rise again.
My sun will come again,
to shine its light unto the Earth.

2008-11-01T11:07:00.002+08:00

Paper.
The tool on which we write things.
The tool which, at present day, is practically indispensible.
It's so smooth.
So straight.
So thin.
So useful.

A plain white piece of paper is just like an innocent child.
You feel like you don't want to write on it.
Because if you do, the paper becomes tainted.

Yet, paper can give us the slightest, yet one of the worst cuts.

'Paper cuts can cause surprisingly acute pain since they usually stimulate a large number of skin surface pain receptors (nociceptors) in a very small area of the skin. Because the shallow cut does not bleed very much, the pain receptors are left open to the air, ensuring continued pain. This is exacerbated by irritation caused by the fibers in the paper itself, which may be coated in chemicals such as bleach.' (Wikipedia)

That innocent little piece of paper is strong enough to give us one of the worst cuts.
It bleeds, even when cuts from penknives and the like can't.
Funny?

Sometimes the smallest things can make us exasperated, angry, frustrated.
It's not the big things we have to always bother with, it's the small.

Sometimes the smallest things require us to be so detailed, that one small mistake can ruin everything.
But when things go wrong, what do you do?
When you have a cut, what do you do?
Cleanse the wound, get a plaster and put it over.
Cover the wound.
Clean the wound.
Treat the wound.
Same thing happens.
When something goes wrong, we need to clean it first.
Then we need to treat the 'wound'.
And, like all cuts, (other than scars) it will heal.

Sama-sama.
Did something wrong?
Clean it. Repent.
Treat it. Ask for forgiveness.
Cover it and let it heal. Don't keep thinking about that mistake.

FOR NOTHING HAS THE POWER TO SAVE
BUT YOUR NAME

2008-11-01T09:47:00.001+08:00

11 papers down, 7 more to go.

2008-11-01T09:46:00.001+08:00

Multplication.

Surprisingly surprising.

2008-10-29T16:21:00.002+08:00

It's been a wonderful 2 weeks since O levels started.
I don't know how well or badly I'd do, but it's not up to me.
Because I know that nothing much will come out of the effort that only I put in.
So I choose to put my trust somewhere else.
Somewhere where I know I am protected.
Somewhere where I know I am blessed.
There are so many things I want to do when the Os end.
And I can't wait for it.
For those things I want to do,
I will press on.
Towards the end.

Thank You.

By faith I have believed
And on this Truth I stand
No power in life or death
Can take me from His hands

2008-10-20T22:14:00.001+08:00

1st written down, 16 more to go.
Jia you!

2008-10-16T20:08:00.002+08:00

"Eh, Celes, calculator."
"What? You want to eat char kway teow?"

"Got sheep."
"Shit?" *starts looking around.
"Sheeeeep."
"Huh? Where?" Lifts up stuff on table.
"SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEP."
"Shit? Yang? (Chinese for sheep) Where?"
"SHEEEEP."
Finally looks at where I've been pointing all along.
"Oh, sheep."

=.="

Of Celestine and her deaf-ear moments.

2008-10-16T19:49:00.002+08:00

The ball has started rolling.
With the ever-so-wonderful Chemistry/Physics Practical.

P.S. I'm not being sarcastic about the above.
P.P.S. Am I being sarcastic about the post script? Who knows.
P.P.P.S I'll probably have even lesser time to blog now, so....

2008-10-15T17:43:00.002+08:00

IT.
WAS.
FREAKY.

I'm not going to post it out here.
You want to know? Ask me.

2008-10-12T16:41:00.002+08:00

What do you want to be?
Where do you want to go?
What do you want to do?

We tend to have those many expectations of ourselves.
Wanting to be at the top.
Dreaming of having all authority and power.
Dreaming of being rich.
I used to get myself lost in those fantasies too.

But sometimes, we rush too much.
We want things done. Quickly.
And we forget what is before us.
We forget that some things cannot be rushed.
We rush into things, forgetting to consult others before doing anything, believing that we are in control of our lives.
But is that true?
Who gave life?
Who created jobs?
Who created work?

Sure, time flies.
Especially when you're having fun.
Especially when you're young.
But so what?
Why rush?
True, we may only have a few decades on Earth.
But if we do all things according to His will, eternity is for us.

We rush, and forget that the actions we take may not be approved by Him.
Are we then to deny ourselves from eternity with our own hands?

I'd rather wait.
I don't want to risk losing an eternal promise.
Hell is at stake here.
I'd rather wait for the gurantee chop, the approval chop before I do anything.
Because I am not in control of my life.
Only the Creator has control over His creations.
You create something, it's yours to deal, to handle, to control, right?
We were created.

I'd rather wait for the Approval Chop, because it means that I'll be protected through it.
Because it means that I have backing.
Nothing will go wrong then.
Even if it does, I am not alone.

2008-10-08T18:44:00.003+08:00

Isn't it so beautiful how our body is made to be so precise, so detailed, yet so uniquely different? And we're all created by the same person, all in His image.
Isn't it so creative?
That one image can give rise to billions of personalities and characters?
How creative can one person get?

Even in this world, there are no 2 people who look exactly alike.
That is, of course, not including clones since they aren't really real humans.
Our fingerprints are all equally different too.
Look, even now, with 6 billion people on the face of this earth:
6 billion people, 8 fingers, 2 thumbs, 10 toes each.
This means: 6 billion X 20 =120 billion different finger/toe prints.
Not to forget all those people years ago.

How creative?
How precise?
Our body has all the enzymes it needs, all the hormones, all the cells...
How the body works itself together to maintain such a wonderful creature, I can never understand.
It has been discovered that although it was supposedly the Big Bang which started the Earth, if the atmosphere, temperature, air percentage was reduced or increased by just 0.0...1%, the universe would never have started.
In other words, we would never have lived.
Look at the precision.
Look at the details beneath the details.

How does our body even know what to do?
The brain?
We start learning things after we're born, but ONCE we are born, the whole body system is already working.
The brain has no time to learn what to do, what signals to tell the various cells.
So how?
It's not just a ball of cells sticking together, not that simple.
It's about them being activated at the right time by the right enzymes/hormones, so that they will work together to bring out this wonderful creation called a human.
Talking about precision, aren't our enzymes all specific too?
Works with only the right ones.

Isn't this all about precision?

BECAUSE YOUR LOVE IS SO TRUE
IT BREAKS THROUGH ALL BOUNDARIES

2008-10-07T16:12:00.002+08:00

Looked at some pictures, read some things.
And I realized how active they are.
How hungry they are.
How 'together' they are.
How close they are.
And something stirred, deep in my heart.

This, or that?
Not for me to choose.
But for me to follow.

How do people connect?

2008-10-07T16:11:00.000+08:00

Lizards can laugh.
You'd better believe that.

2008-10-04T22:25:00.002+08:00

=) I got a lion today!
Thanks John, for Li-On. =)

Once again, when we water others, we ourselves WILL be watered.
It was not revealed by man, but by Someone higher.
It's not simply a coincidence.

2008-10-04T21:44:00.001+08:00

For greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this city
For greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done here

2008-10-02T21:34:00.002+08:00

Farewell Assembly.
Thought I'd write a bit about it.
It was great.
I shan't talk about the negative things it made me think of.
I shall talk of the wonderful positive things.

Firstly, Mr Koh came back.
As a VIP. Haha.
Then, all the speeches.
Drones.
Next, prize presentation.
It was really surprising, you know, the people who scored the best.
Then, class videos.
Ms Ng had a special video for her class, with her dog.
It was oh-so-cute.
I think my future dog shall be that breed too. =)
Then teachers sang a song.
Then more class videos.
Then the teachers' messages for us.
Then more class videos, including my class's. =0

Then, there was the lighting of candles.
No one wanted to blow it out. Haha.
Then the school song.
Apparently Boy went up to command, but then it could not be heard over the thunderous noise.
haha.
Then, we went back to class, after a long long long time strolling around.
Guess what the juniors had for us?
Those special files with the transparent pockets. =)
What was special, though, was that the cover page was specially made for Crescentians.
It said, "the day when we must part, may Crescent remain in our hearts. Crescent Girls'."
Super nice.
Then inside was some notes from our juniors.
Mine was from all NPCC. =)
Sec2s, Sec1s, Sec3, Hazzie.
Haha.
Thanks, everyone, who made this farewell a great one! =)

P.S. Geezm I keep seeing lights flashing outside my window. There's no thunder, no lightning. What's it?

P.P.S. Farewell's over. No more school, or rather, our school hours are flexible. But Os are coming, it's now or never. Work hard, 4S2. P.S. I love you. =)

2008-10-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

Lizards can laugh.
Laughing lizards.

2008-10-01T18:44:00.001+08:00

CURRENTLY ON HIATUS
UNTIL THE END OF MY WONDERFUL O LEVELS
or maybe just until I have to time to come online and post something.

2008-09-22T18:58:00.002+08:00

Got back all my Prelim results today, except for HCL.
Geez. I didn't do that well, even with the As. ...
But, at least it was an improvement from mid-years.
At least I'm not that far away from my goal.
Still far, but closing the gap.
I didn't improve because I studied, but because I had Someone beside me.
Thank You.
All glory to You.

Oh, did I tell you?
I've changed my goal.
It's not ____ anymore, it's ______ now.
Always moving forward.

However, if You don't want me to go there, then I will go wherever You call me to go. I will follow only You. Only You.

2008-09-22T18:57:00.000+08:00

TODAY
TODAY I’M LEAVING ALL MY TROUBLES BEHIND
I’M LETTING GO I’LL FOLLOW THE LINE
I’M HOLDING ON WITH ALL OF MY LIFE
I SEE A RISING SUN
WE’VE ONLY JUST BEGUN

TODAY I’M WALKING TO THE BEAT OF YOUR HEART
YOU TAKE ME ALL THE WAY TO THE START
STRETCH YOUR HANDS STRAIGHTEN THE PATH
I’M FOUND IN OPEN SKIES
YOUR HEART IT LIVES IN MINE

TODAY

TODAY I’M FINDING MY FIRST LOVE AGAIN
I’M LEARNING HOW TO LET YOU IN
I’M TRUSTING YOU WITH ALL THAT I AM
THE SHADOWS FADE AWAY
IT’S YOU THAT CLEARS THE DAY

NO MORE RUNNING WILD
I’M YOURS FOR LIFE
WELL YOU GOT ME HERE
WELL YOU GOT ME
I HEAR YOUR CALL TONIGHT
YOUR HEART IS MINE
WELL YOU GOT ME HERE
WELL YOU GOT ME

YOU DREW ME OUT OF THE DEEPEST SEA
YOU GAVE MY SOUL A SONG TO SING
YOU TOOK ME UP ON THE MOUNTAINS HIGH
I SEE MY LIFE IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT

2008-09-17T20:22:00.002+08:00

Finally, 4X4 Rubik's Cube.
Finally, I solved it. =)
Grins from ear to ear. =)

Career Seminar today.
Most people wore their work clothes.
And so did I.
Want to see how I looked?
Ask those whom I took picture with.
Everyone looked great though. =0
Had fun today.
Definitely.

2008-09-15T17:07:00.001+08:00

Prelims' over. Finally.
Boy, he wasn't really kidding when he said that prelims would be difficult.

2008-09-14T18:45:00.002+08:00

It's no longer just defensive for me.
I've been retreating too much.
I've been sitting on the back seat for too long.
It's time to get up and take over.
To stand up for what I believe in.
To fight for the cause.
The shield, helmet, shoes and breastplate won't protect me any longer from the vicious attacks.
Even the best armor will break under continuous use.
Let me take up the sword, coupled with the mental and physical preparation.
Let me stand up to the attacker.
Let me believe that I will emerge victorious.

2008-09-14T18:32:00.003+08:00

Turn the page.
Let's start over.
We can't erase the previous chapters, they'll stay there to remind me of the past.
But we can start a whole new chapter.
To begin once again.
I've seen You write for others.
Such stories.
Such wonders.
Will You write for me?
To finish mine with a happy ending.
It's not just fairy-tales which have happy endings.
I want mine with a wonderful one.
An ending that shines with Your style.
A story that speaks of Your faithfulness.
Continue the book.
Finish the book.
I know things have been split over this book, made stains on the pages.
It looks ugly, yes, I know.
But won't You clean this book?
Clean it like You have done to many others.
Renew it.
A stack of paper bunched together.
That's what a book is.
But what use is it if it's not written in?
Fill this book with Your words.
With Your style.
With Your love.
Let it move together with You.
Let it be wherever You may go.
Let it not lag behind.
Let it not try to get ahead of You.
Let it be beside You.
At all times.
Thank You.

2008-09-14T17:59:00.001+08:00

RUBIKS ICE CUBE 2X2.
FINALLY.

2008-09-14T17:52:00.001+08:00

It's not about the heart anymore.
It's about what you do after.

2008-09-12T17:47:00.002+08:00

Went ToyRus today after lunch with Celestine.
Wanted to look for the 2x2 Rubik's Cube ICE.
But apparently they didn't sell it, so I was sad. =(
Then, I was looking for this toy keychain thing, but apparently, once again, they didn't have it since there was only the bigger version of it.

WOW.
I was awed in there.
Kids these days have so many fun things to play with, things I would have wanted so badly when I was younger. Things /Toys that would have made me so interested (actually, it still does), but then, I know all about it now, so there's no fun in that anymore. Wow. Amazing.

Finally bought the pump for my basketball. o.O
Okay, who even knew that I had a basketball?
Yeah, it's been so long now, since I've touched my basketball.
The lion at ToyRus was SO cute!
Oh yeah, I saw this keychain whose brand was 'Luving lionel" o.O
Right. The lion was quite cute though.

Ah, speaking of it, my next blogskin WILL be a lion-skin. It's super cute! =)
Haha, ok, then. I shall leave you readers here. =)

2008-09-12T17:43:00.002+08:00

They say there's no free lunch in this world.
How wrong they are.
I just got one.

THANK YOU, CELESTINE'S AUNT!
The food was great, awesome.
She probably see this, but well...

Prelim's over for most.
Left one MT on Monday.
Practical today was great, I think.
Seemed right to me.

I want to know the One
Who holds my hands in this race that I run

2008-09-11T21:51:00.003+08:00

The power of visualization.
An image.
A vision.
A hope.
A dream.

What wonders visualization can bring.
What wonders your imagination can give.
What hopes your dreams can give.
How many people have achieved great things because they dared to dream, because they dared to believe?

I realised...
My insignificance. How small I am.
How small just 1 person can be.
Then I realised the magnificence behind it.
Alone I can't accomplish anything.
Alone my dreams will never work itself out.
Not my abilities.
My abilities were given to me.
I was not born with it.
But it was given, so I shall use it wisely.

I am powerless, but there is One who works upon the powerlessness of Man.
To empower the ordinary to do extraordinary things.

I can do nothing but believe.
And trust in a promise that will never be broken.

2008-08-28T21:11:00.002+08:00

To stand with this Perfect Love.
I have seen the importance.
I have seen the grace.
I have set myself a goal.

"Using the ordinary to do extraordinary things."

2008-08-28T20:05:00.002+08:00

Why compare me to her?
Her of all people. Geez.

2008-08-28T19:42:00.002+08:00

Geez. Can't a person be nice without being thought of as someone with a motive?
Geez. What does it take to be nice?
Geez. What does it take to just give to others?

Are all humans that bad?
Don't we have a good side?
Does it mean that only your parents are the best and others will always want to worst out of you?
If it does, does it mean that those abandoned children have no hope of finding love?
If not, then what is this love that I experience every moment of my life? It's definitely not from my birth parents.
If not, then why are there people who donate to others? Anonymously.

2008-08-25T16:16:00.003+08:00

Another declaration
I am officially changing my blogskin after my Prelims.

Now for the purpose.
The purpose of the above declaration is to somehow influence my blogskin not to look so dull and boring, so that it will look more interesting to me and I will not change it.

Seriously. It's getting a little bit too long and dull. I hate this color, you know. I'd totally love it if it were black. Or red. Not blue though. I don't think it'll look nice. :P

2008-08-25T16:08:00.002+08:00

Prelims first paper: Today.

I think the papers were good. Not bad. Thank God.
Once again, He answered my prayers.

Not by might, not by power.

I'm feeling slightly under the weather. Keep sneezing.
I have a declaration to make: My nose has, officially, after 16 long years with me, decided that it wants to run away to a faraway place where I can't find it, so that I will be nose-less.
The purpose of that declaration is to mock my nose for even attempting to leave me so that my darling nose will feel ashamed and not leave.

There. That's what happens when you have too much of SS.
Tmr's Lit Elective and EMath.
Emath- ok la.
Lit Elect- ... (speechless)

SS & BIO together. OMG. How on earth did the school thnk of such a combination? 2 papers which needs hard memorization and understanding together? How to chiong? How to mug?
Ah wells. I shall do well.

2008-08-21T20:36:00.002+08:00

Prelims's in less than a week. 4 days to be exact.
4 years. Gone just like that.

Okok, my 'remembrance' post for Crescent shall be done at the end of the year, when I have more free time.
Looking forward so some awfully exciting moves at tabletennis tmr.

The Olympics just renewed the love for Table tennis in me. I used to be a table tennis player, you know. I still remember how, on my first training, I was so hyped up for it, ready to start. But I guess I went too fast, trying to run before I could even walk. The coach shouted at me to go to a corner and practice bouncing the ball on the racket, at least 20 times. It's not easy on first try, you know. It's not as simple as you think.

After I finally got control of my wrist and knew how to balance myself, I thought I was ready. Boy, was I proven wrong! After a few hits and misses, time to clear the balls from the floor. It's really a game that makes you start right from the beginning, right from scratch. It wasn't easy, but I got through it. In one piece.

Soon, I started learning strategies. How to control the curves of a ball in mid-air. How to return a fast but corner ball. When to use energy and when not to. I was learning. Competitions, school-based, nation based. I took part in them, yes. But why did I stop after P4? I can't recall the details, but I think it was too time consuming. Either that or my fire for the sport had just died off.

It was a short 2 years, but I remember it as if it were today. What I would give to play it once more. My racket's gone, my skills rusted. How will I play?

2008-08-21T16:18:00.002+08:00

Post about O level Oral yesterday.

Hygiene. Of all things. Ah wells.
I think I did MUCH better than I'd usually do.
Maybe it's because I _______.
Maybe it's because I had ________.
Maybe it's because I know _________.

But it was good, nonetheless.

Above all my expectations.
Exceedingly, abundantly, above all expectations.

Thank You.

2008-08-18T19:51:00.001+08:00

"Oh, oh, I know. It starts with a 'C'. Ah, Dutch!"

2008-08-17T10:21:00.000+08:00

Of Sowji and her never ending "Let me continue"s.

2008-08-15T20:59:00.002+08:00

Singapore's finally got a medal.
In Beijing Olympics 2008.
Table-tennis women's.

It was so stressing watching the match. Especially if I know the rules. If I didn't know the rules, might not be so stressed, but wow.
First medal. History.
Her name will be written in the books of history.
She was singled out as the weakling, yet she broke through it and got the first medal.
Impressive.

2008-08-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

A SWEET AROMA

2008-08-15T20:57:00.001+08:00

A heart that hides Your word
So that sin will not come in
A heart that's undivided
But one You rule and reign

2008-08-15T20:51:00.003+08:00

I can't believe this.
This hit me. Hit me big time.
After all I've done?
After all I've cared?

I can't believe it.

I want to see the rainbow.
But for that, I'd have to endure through the rain.
Rain that used to diminish my hope,
Now it's just so refreshing.

2008-08-12T17:30:00.003+08:00

Children.
Parents.

Do you know how much children look up to their parents? How children would practically do anything to get their parents' attention? Children who would do silly things just to get their parents to acknowledge that they're there?

That idea struck me again today.
After someone told her mom about her excellent results, and her mom praised her for the first time. She was so happy she cried. Tears of joy. Touched. Then it struck me how I felt too, at the beginning of the year, when I got my first A1 for L1R5. When I told my mom, it was also, the first time she praised me openly.

Even when I finally found out how to solve the Rubik's Cube, my mom said, "Of course, if you don't solve it, then why on earth did you buy it? Such a waste of money!" There and then, it struck me. It struck me hard.

How much children need their parents' affirmation. How much these words of praise, encouragement mean to the children. I guess, back then, I thought, if only I could get my mom to praise me again, I'd do anything. Words of affirmation. Words of love. Words that show others how much you care. Words that tell others that you're there for them.

I read an article which talked about how little parents nowadays praise their child. Isn't it true? Parents nowadays are simply extreme, either they overly praise, or they don't praise at all. Under praise is a bad thing, but over praise is also a bad thing. Complacency arises with over praise. Low self-esteem strengthens with under praise.

You came and poured Yourself so free
Your blood washed away my shame
And now, I can live again
I'm more of You and less of me

2008-08-12T17:27:00.002+08:00

You know, when there's a small opening in a wall, you just want to find out where it leads to, right? You want to know what is it that is behind that wall. The knowledge of knowing what is behind just gets you so excited and eager. What's why, zee. That's why I did what I did. =)

That's curiosity.
But it takes courage to find out what's behind.

2008-08-12T17:15:00.002+08:00

They got back their O levels MT results today. 4S2 did horrendously well, better than all the other classes. Even the teachers were shocked. GO, 4S2! =)

I'm really proud of all of them. Even if they did not achieve the results that they wanted, none went into despair and gave up, that kind of thing. Even the oral examiners were impressed with the way 4S2 students held themselves, trying their very best. They do deserve it.

The teachers say, if we put in as much effort as we did for our MT O levels (which I took last year), then we'd definitely be glad with our results. I beg to differ. I didn't work for my MT O levels last year. If I put in the same effort to the other subjects, I bet I'd get a C for everything. MT End of years O levels are freaking easy (or rather, that's what I feel after getting my results. haha.), you don't have to work hard to get that A1. But Mid years O levels are a different story. I've never taken them, so I don't know. But I guess Chinese O levels Mid years was rather alright.

Some didn't do as expected. Don't worry. I may not know how you feel, but I sure understand the feeling of being so thoroughly disappointed after putting in so much hard work, like no matter how much you do, it's useless. I know that feeling. It's unbearable, yes, but life's like that. It's not a bed of roses, but neither is it a bed of thorns. You won't fall forever. You fall, yes, but you can get back up. When you get back up, you will do exceedingly, better than before, because you've got experience. Yes, cry by all means, express your feelings, but stand up after that. There's no point in life if you keep sulking and telling yourself you can't do it. If you think you can't, then get help. I'm sure there're many who'd be more than willing to teach you, to guide you.

Just give it your best.
Life's too short to keep on wasting.

2008-08-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

I GOT KIROU yesterday!

Kirou was born on the Eighth day of the Eighth month of the Eighth year of the new millennium. She is a soft and squishy little monkey, 43 cm, currently 535 kg grams. Unfortunately, she has yet to learn how to make a sound, so you might have to wait for a while to hear her say something. She is currently wearing a little red checkered dress that looks slightly Spanish, wearing also that cute little smile she always carries. Kirou loves her new home but prefers to sleep in her little comfy dark room where she is a giant. Her foot sticks out of the door of the little room and she can hardly move around in it. However, she loves it inside there. So, as a respecter of ~~stuffed~~ animals' rights, I shall let her do as she wishes.

Kirou was given to me by Celestine and Zarifah, ~~though a part was paid by me~~...

2008-08-09T16:18:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

I can't imagine living somewhere else other than home! =)
Thank you, Singapore. =)

2008-08-08T21:43:00.003+08:00

What to do?
What to say?

I'm still learning, if that helps.

Some of us just think that we can do everything by ourselves, but who knows that it's impossible? It is impossible that your whole life can be depended on yourself. Not only emotionally, but physically too. When we were young, our parents fed us, our parents clothed us, our parents cared for us. Showed us love.

Our parents are our guidance on earth. To prepare us for the world. For eternity. Yes, they may not be perfect, they may not be the best parents, but I believe that deep inside their heart, our parents care for us. He would not give us parents who are unprepared for children, parents who are unfit to bring up a child.

No matter what they do, they are our parents. They are not perfect, they make mistakes, do we forgive them? How strange is it that we can say, "to err is human", yet when our parents make a mistake, we say, "they can't make any mistakes, because they're parents." It simply makes no sense. If they didn't make mistakes, if they didn't do wrong, if they did everything perfectly, they'd be god. But they're not.

So, do we forgive? Isn't the point that they have given much to let us live on this earth enough for us to forgive them? Do you know how much it costs these days to have a baby? Do you know how many health risks women face when pregnant? It's not a bed of roses, just walking difficulty or not being able to see your feet kind of life only, it concerns much more. Our parents have definitely sacrificed much to bring us onto this Earth. What's more to say that we're born in Singapore. Where there is no starvation. Although the land's small, but all races live together in harmony. Where we don't need to worry about living, education, food, because the government cares enough to sponsor us if we do not have enough. What more can we ask for?

People in other countries are starving, but they don't blame their parents for that, do they? If they can toughen themselves up, what more can we say and do, having more than what they have? Appreciate what we have first before doing anything. It is a blessing to be able to live in Singapore.

I thank my parents for my current life.
But I thank the Ultimate One for making this happen.
For planning my entire life even before I was born.

Though I may not understand
All the plans You have for me
My life is in Your hands
THANK YOU

2008-08-06T20:08:00.002+08:00

Bintan Trip's been postponed to 14-16 Nov.
Which gives me one night to rest after O's, and one night to rest after coming back before prom the next day/night. Right.

How on earth am I supposed to get the time to get my attire for that night? Can't believe this. This probably means that I would have to get it before the big O's or something. Geez.

Ah wells, time will work itself out. =)
At least I can go for the Bintan trip. Although it's dangerous a time slot.

It's super close to Asia Conf. too. Gahh. Why are things so packed right after O's? And my parents are talking about going overseas during the Bintan trip. Without me? Devastation.

Ah wells. Gotta go chiong some work now before tmr comes. Ta-ta.

2008-08-06T20:07:00.001+08:00

What do you do when it seems as if the whole world's against you?
Break down and cry?
Stand there and stone?
Pick yourself up and stand strong?
Ignore it and carry on?

Come on, face it. Face the music.
The enemy has been defeated.

2008-08-05T19:57:00.002+08:00

You are the wind beneath my wings

You lift me up when I'm falling.
Who else but you can do such a thing?

2008-08-05T19:54:00.002+08:00

Heard something today.

How would you react?
Is it right to do such a thing?
What would you do?
What's right and what's wrong to you?
There're so many conflicting issues in there.
Which path would you choose?

I choose guidance.

2008-08-04T22:10:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAIHAN!

You've been an interesting AM/EM partner to sit beside, always so excited and enthusiastic. Your "blur" smile never fails to make me laugh even when I'm not feeling so well. =) Thank you dear, for just being you. =)

2008-08-04T22:03:00.002+08:00

Got Jodi Picoult's "Plain Truth" from Pearl and Mel. C today for my birthday. =)

Geez, this stupid security pop-up thing is getting irritating. Ah wells.

Night study ~~today,~~ tonight was fun.

Anthropomorphism= the attribution of human characteristics or behavior to a god, animal or object.

I learnt a new word today, during the ENG consultation. =) They spelt the word wrongly in the question paper. Haha. Made me go downstairs to get a dictionary specially for teacher to check the word. I learn something new today. =)

2008-08-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

I found joy.
I found love.
I found hope.
I found peace.
I found that success without sacrifice is nothing.
I found that living without serving is a waste of lifetime.
I found out that sadness is nothing compared to the joy I will receive.
I found out that to give is to receive.
I found out that I already have an example to learn from.
I found trust.

What is life without knowledge?
We are designed to keep learning, to keep improving.
Not to be a perfectionist, but to strive towards perfection.
They're different. Striving towards perfection means looking forward, moving forward, improving ourselves constantly. To be a perfectionist means that you think you can be perfect, that you can do things perfectly. But who knows that it is not true? No one is perfect except one. He is our example. That's why he's perfect.

2008-08-04T21:00:00.002+08:00

2 people with the same goal may be able to work together, but they might not be able to get along well together.
Because they have the same goal, they'll tend to be more competitive against each other.
Yet, they will be willing to work alongside each other, helping each other, which in turn is indirectly helping themselves.

2 people with the same personality may be able to live together, but not work together. If both are the timid type, then they would be too giving to the other, not taking initiative to step out. If both are the ambitious type, then it would be too competitive, things can get dangerous between them.

I would love having a dog, because dogs are always and forever loyal to their owners. Even in a life and death situation, dogs are willing to brave the danger to save their master. There have been many cases of this man's best friends sacrificing their own life to save their masters. Wow. That kind of sacrificial love, how many can do that? I want to be able to look to the better good, not only for myself, i want to have that personality of a loyal friend, like a dog always giving towards their master, helping the owner get sandals, newspapers, serving the owner. I want to serve witht hat kind of attitude. A willing heart and a giving mind.

2008-08-03T17:08:00.002+08:00

I got a Rubik's 4x4 today! =)
During tuition! =)

Hmmm, I've got like 3 books for my birthday.
TinTin Volume 8, Egmont Version
TinTin Volume 3, Little,Brown Version (which is also Egmont version Volume 4)
Jodi Picoult, Harvesting the heart.

Was reading the summary of some of Jodi Picoult's other books yesterday.
Super good. Wanted to buy all the books.
I love Keeping Faith, Change of Heart, 19 Minutes, 10th Circle, The Pact...
Basically every book she has written. The way she makes the summary and the story so intriguing is absolutely beyond words. Yet I've only read Sister's Keeper.
No wonder she's a bestseller.

2008-07-31T21:47:00.003+08:00

A great big thank you to everyone who tried to make this birthday a really sweet one!
I received a lot today, not only in gifts, but also emotionally. =)

This birthday really taught me something. And I want to make this year a new beginning. Which is part of the reason why I changed my blog url.

And I realised that I couldn't relink because I just changed the url of my current blog, and it is impossible to create a new blog with "fireperfectme-.blogspot.com" because blogger no longer allows the dash at the back.

So sorry to all those who would have to make an effort in order to find my blog, but it's on my msn, so not to worry. =)

This was a great birthday. The best I've had in years, no, it's the best. =)
Because of the people celebrating. And I've not received ALL my presents. There're more to come. =)

I got my Mango Mousse! =)
YAYNESS!

2008-07-31T19:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
TO MUNJUN AND I!

2008-07-30T21:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUNTENG!

A friend so special, a friend so true, a friend so generous.
Thank you for the past 4 years that I've known you, girl.
Stay cool. =)

2008-07-30T19:22:00.000+08:00

01 MORE DAY!

2008-07-29T19:21:00.000+08:00

02 MORE DAYS!

2008-07-28T19:21:00.000+08:00

03 MORE DAYS!

2008-07-27T20:15:00.001+08:00

Today was intensive tuition.
Almost couldn't take it.

2008-07-27T19:20:00.000+08:00

04 MORE DAYS!

2008-07-26T19:20:00.000+08:00

05 MORE DAYS!

2008-07-25T19:20:00.000+08:00

06 MORE DAYS!